I am writing this blog hurriedly as I hear laughter from my housemates. This is our final year of university and like new year resolution I have made a lot of promises I didn’t keep. I feel like a first is no longer in reach and this is not me being perssimistic rather it is just me being honest and truthful.
This year has been ridiculously hard and I let myself down. I thought I changed my mindset coming back and I really thought I could get the first. I just messed up and I don’t know what to do.I finally wanted to make myself proud! A first class graduate! I was so determined but now with tears I have to let that dream go. It is so bad that I am even struggling to get a 2:1. I honestly don’t know how to make it better.
I want to do so well and get into an amazing masters program ! Honestly everything is in Gods hands now… All I can do is just try my best! I’m scared of the future…I am anxious! Life seems to keep knocking me down! My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer shortly after I started uni and that hit home pretty hard.
I know this is is all over the place but this symbolises my life at the moment…I want to make it and make my parents ,family and myself proud! I wanna be proud and happy…I want my graduation to be blessed.
New year ,new me ! Never that new year,more improved and wiser me is more like it
The life of a college student who is struggling to keep afloat !
i need you Jesus ;(